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October 3rd, 2007 - Rion Amilcar Scott

On this day—not October 3, 2007—I am revising a story I was writing on that October date ten years ago. How does one revise a story for ten years? If you were to tell me in 2007 that I would still be working on this story with a title ripped from a Biggie Smalls song—“Party & Bullshit”—I’d perhaps laugh darkly, bitterly. My worst fears confirmed. It would become obvious to me: all that I was learning in graduate school, all that I was writing, had come to absolutely nothing. The story concerns a young man who is dissatisfied with everything around him. He attends a party at a nightclub, hoping that helps him make sense of his life. He has a disastrous work day and contemplates the numerous ways his job is destroying his soul. He contemplates a relationship that he is unsure of. October 3, 2007 was a Sunday. Sundays, these days, fill me with dread. They mean that for the next several days I will strap myself every morning into a rolling glass and metal cage to take my body to a place my heart and mind refuse to go. I am scattered to the wind, displaced. Pieces of me here and there. Rarely do I find myself united. I felt no such dread on October 3, 2007. I had no job to rip me apart the next day, just writing classes. I was in my parents’ basement where I lived, a sanctuary I didn’t know was a sanctuary, and that story kept coming. I recalled that job I had years before that drained me and I turned it into fiction, satirizing my past despair. Never again would I feel so ripped apart by a job, I thought. It was worth a laugh on the page, just as the notion of never again being destroyed by a job is worth a laugh now. Like the character, I contemplated my relationship, surely time would make coupling make sense. There was nothing I had to do to make things make sense, no actions I had to take; all I had to do was live and trust time. I realize now that that whole time—October 3, 2007 and all its surrounding days—were a kind of Sunday. The world rushed in eventually, dreadful and dark. In roughly a year and a month, my grandmother would be gone—a sanctuary lost. People, I learned, want what they want from you and time puts nothing in order. Sundays and every other day became dreadful again, but especially Sundays. I watched pieces of me scatter and buzz about like confused gnats. I returned to “Party & Bullshit” frequently, changing a sentence here, deciding it’s brilliant and then condemning it as a hack work, sending it out for publication and collecting rejection after rejection. The manuscript that the story was initially a part of, I watched it become a bloated mess and one day it spontaneously combusted, metaphorically, of course. I salvaged “Party & Bullshit” for some reason, perhaps to hold on to that October 3, 2007 feeling. That time, like all times, is gone though. I look at the sentences now and try as I revise to honor the twenty-seven year old who wrote them. Many of the things that mattered to him, don’t matter to me now and so many things should have mattered to him. It’s not a story I would write today, but one I would revise, forever if I have to from Sunday to Sunday, with the faith that I can recast ten years of memories into a story I can live with.


Rion Amilcar Scott’s short story collection, Insurrections (University Press of Kentucky, 2016) was awarded the 2017 PEN/Bingham Prize for Debut Fiction. Presently, he teaches English at Bowie State University.

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